2:46 PM

Happy Birthday, Balky

Dear Balky, Happy birthday. You would have been 47 today--I think, I can never really remember how old any of you are except Rich. We woul...
5:05 AM

Under Construction

It's December. I  love December. I  love Christmas. Usually. Not this year. This year, I am literally and figuratively under construct...
7:22 AM

Don't Sweat the Small Stuff

Sometimes, I get caught up in paying bills, spills on the carpet, kids arguing, broken garage doors. You know, all of the mundane, day-to-da...
4:41 AM

Say something

For years, I've tried to be mindful, to live in the moment. I read, meditate, do yoga, in the effort to be more aware. I am aware. Somet...
3:39 PM

Small Voices

For the past few days, I have felt lost and fumbling. I keep praying and waiting and hoping that God will intervene--and maybe He has, and I...
11:05 AM

Someday...

Tomorrow is Lakeview's Homecoming game. My baby girl is on Homecoming court, so that means that Brad and I get to walk her across the fi...

Baggage

For the past month, I have been fighting with myself about whether or not to continue taking medication. I don't feel depressed anymore....
4:17 AM

Mars and Venus

This morning I realized, yet again, how different my husband and I are. After beating myself up for weeks  about my weight gain and struggli...
6:23 AM
July 18th was my dad's birthday. He would have been 95. Historically, this has been a really fun time for my family. My brothers would v...

Fat Ass

Over the last eight months, I have gained 20 pounds. I have a laundry list of excuses why: I quit smoking, my dad died, my husband started s...
6:41 AM

Today I smiled...

It is interesting how you have certain ideas about yourself, and then a lesson creeps up, smacks you in the face, and shows you that some of...
5:19 AM

I don't like the look of her...

I have been thinking a lot about friendship lately. New, old, lifelong, fleeting. I was listening to my mother-in-law and her friend talking...

Facebook=High School

Most of us have probably thought it. I have had numerous conversations about it. Surely more than one of my status updates have reflected it...
5:50 AM

Shopping with Mom

Today, I went shopping with my Mom and Lily. It started out just Lily and me, but I picked my mom up and took her, because whether she needs...
8:09 AM

I'll Fly Away

For the past several months, since my sister introduced me to K-Love 107.1, I have listened almost exclusively to Christian music. I don'...
9:51 AM

Sunday Britches--my eulogy to my Dad

Most everyone who knew my dad had a story about him. The past few weeks, I've heard a ton of them. In his passing, in his memory, I wo...
4:19 AM

Mostly Good...

I have thought a lot about a defining moment. Heard people talk about them. Watched light bulbs go on over other people's head. Had some...
4:19 AM

Resolutions

I feel a lot of pressure when someone asks about my New Year's resolutions. Kind of like that goal-setting exercise to write a personal ...
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